Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold


-Crossfade "Cold"



So much to say... I just can't find the words...

"My city or mountains, stay with me stay...Give to me your leather... take from me... my lace"
-Stevie Nicks and Don Henley "Leather and Lace"


I don't expect forgiveness.













Been a year since Oliver died. Which means baby Brianna is nearly a year. Her b-day is Friday.

Life is... Well, it just is.